Monday, March 28, 2011

Sleeping Sienna...

I couldn't find Sienna...I kept calling her and calling her. I went looking and this is what I found...didn't even have to tell her it was time for bed...and then I looked down and saw what she did and it made me laugh out loud...you see she does this stuff all the time...she has been doing it since she was tiny....Hunter use to do it too. She makes me laugh a lot.


Love those bunny slippers...all set for when she wakes up...not sure about the book maybe it's for barbie...




On another note...my latest project...got my banister painted. It's been bugging me since the day we moved it. Finally done! It's like just going down my check list of things I want to change in my house. Eventually I will get it all done...then I will probably be ready to change it. Ha!

Before...

After...



I actually thought the handrails were going to be darker but he said this was the darkest stain before black and he used 3 coats..oh well...I am happy with it. On to the next project...

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Life and Stuff...

So Cooper has a little friend named Dylan. For those of you that have been around Cooper and his friends this isn't the Dylan you are thinking of...different Dylan. This Dylan is one of my absolute favorites of Coop's friends..super lovable, funny, nice to Sienna and just has something so so sweet about him...
Whenever Coop asks if he can have friends over if Dylan is involved I can't help but say yes....some of his other friends...maybe not as much....

So I was sitting on my bed on March 4th when Coop comes in and I could tell something was wrong....tears in his eyes....he tells me Dylan just called me mom...he was really crying....he said his mom is in the hospital and his dad told him he needed to come say goodbye to her...she was dying.
Well that's all Coop needed to say till I was in tears...as we both sat there on my bed crying asking each other what does a 12 year old boy do without a mom? Coop says who is going to make his lunch, wash his clothes...take care of him? I say.. I don't know.

Coop woke up Monday morning and said Mom I have a missed call from Dylan at 12:30 am...I am afraid his mom might have passed away....I am grateful Cooper is the kind of friend that Dylan feels he can call at 12:30 am to cry about his mom dying....I am grateful Coop is the one everyone is asking if Dylan is doing okay...even the teachers, and I am grateful that Cooper knows the answers because he is that kind of a friend that he asks Dylan.

How do you make sense of it all? I can't....I tell Coop all I know is Dylan is gonna need us...I will pick him up any time and drop him home, he can come over after school, on the weekends, eat dinner with us... any time he wants.

We just got back from her viewing....I am so filled with emotions right now I don't know what to do with them. Thinking about this sweet boy...when everyone goes home and life goes back to normal....only his won't ever go back to the normal he knew. Who is going to tuck him in at night...I am sure his dad is a lovely person and will do the best he can but it's just not his mom.
Since I lost my mom I feel his pain but I was in my 30's... not 12.

This is the picture he posted on his facebook as his profile picture and I cried when I saw it...


This has definitely made Cooper and I have some pretty serious conversations about death. Tonight I said.. wow Coop I am so grateful that we know Dylan will see him mom again...imagine how awful death would be if you really thought you would never see your mom ever again. I know my mom will be waiting for me with open arms one day....